Those who know me, know that I have a tendency to obsess over things I love, and when I start a project I will obsess over it until it's complete. I always been like that and it always worked in my favor before. You see, I also get distracted easily and by obsessing on a project until completion has help me staying focus until my mind wonder on a new adventures… I say it has because it has, until this year… Last October when I launch A Canvas Journey it was the biggest solo project where people depends on me I have ever commit myself artistically. In a couple of weeks when I publish March lesson I would be half through it! I enjoyed every minutes of it and although I consider Kabostudio a business it doesn't pay all the bills yet and I still work full time. I'm not complaining many other artists are the same you do what you need to do to make the dream come true.
So I've been having long weeks, not much day off, all new discovery where for A Canvas Journey, all other project have been put aside and the apartment is dustier than usual. You can only go this intense on something for a time before you exhaust yourself and the creativity stop flowing… or the will to create. That will is vital for me, I started doubting myself, being afraid of letting my students down so I took a week off. I hide for a little while, cleaned my apartment, start working on doll again, doing projects that were just for me, no one else. Suddenly the creativity was coming back; in fact it never went anywhere it just needed a break. I'm an introvert I need my time alone and I had been missing it. That seem strange since I do spent a lot of my time along. I was also still working on healing a broken heart dealing with the fact that I might be single for a long time, which don't scare me, I have been single for the major part of my adult life and there is a certain freedom to it that suit my life choice. Anywho I diverse…
After the break I realized I had to find balance and allow some me time more often. I rearrange my schedule so that it don't feel like I'm working every single day. I started doing yoga again, damn I got out of shape so much in the last year, it's like I've lost myself somewhere and I am finally putting the pieces back together. I also became an Ovo-lacto vegetarian, I've stop eating meat, it's a personal choice that has forced me to take better care of myself, cook more, be healthier and learn a better way to consume food that fit my personal beliefs. It works for me so far, like I said it's personal.
Overall I find my life more balance and I'm pretty damn proud of myself, the class is a success and I did it all by myself with all your support of course, which I'm forever thankful for. Sometimes I really do have to pinch myself to realize that I am truly doing all of it! :)
And you how do you find the balance between obligations and play time?